I open the door, my heart rate starts running fast

The urge to see that thing fall

It beats faster and faster

I wait anxiously to see it

My eyes are shining looking at the clouds

When suddenly...

A glance of what I was expecting the most

My heart gave it's last high beat

Followed by a tremendous smile

And it just slowed down

The vibrations of that powerful sound

Calmed and relaxed my body

Like an anesthetic

Wondering...

So alone yet so accompanied
Stuff from the past comes back in my mind
I want to take it off but it's hard
Want to break something as if it was my own head
To make it stop, even if it hurts.
Anything would do...

There is something missing
I don't really know what
Want to run away once again
But that just brings the possibility of losing something more
Like I've lost before.

I want to feel that freedom again
That one feeling
I was able to do anything
Whenever I wanted
No one would ruin that feeling...